Have you ever felt so overwhelmed with emotions that your day seems to be one dramatic “moment” after another, ending in a self-centered, emotional train wreck? Well, I have been allowing my struggle of self centeredness and selfishness, to be the basis of every “moment” in my day; leaving my spirit tired, miserable, scared, lonely, angry, frustrated and confused.
Why? I guess I could blame my life getting busy, my husband, the stress of finances or my “hurt feelings.” That’s the easiest thing to do when in a selfish rut…BLAME EVERYTHING and EVERYONE ELSE!
Well, I’m not going to do that…..I am going to be honest. I have stopped meditating on the goodness’s of God and only focused on my “feelings.” I have allowed negativity to consume my mind; Therefore, shifting my focus from Him and towards my fears, failures, shortcomings, offenses and hurt. I have allowed the mountains in my mind to OVERTAKE my mind.
1 Peter 5:7- “Cast ALL your cares onto Him, for He cares for you.”
Why do I so often forget that? He cares for ME and I am His child. His heart is for me to cast ALL my burdens on Him and rest in His True and Perfect love.
I want to share with you a lyric from a song that my husband wrote recently, (ironically titled “Perfect God”), because I have been singing it over and over in my mind…..
“There on the cross dying for us,
you chose to stay for our freedom”
Wow, just ponder on that for a second…..it’s an overwhelming thought for me. “You CHOSE to stay for our freedom.”
“Heavenly Father forgive me of my selfishness. How could I ever doubt You and Your perfect plan for my life? Help me to continue to grow in You, continue to teach me how to show True Love-as You intend as I am reminded of your True and perfect love, for me. Thank you for your grace and mercy. Thank You for choosing to send your son Jesus to die for my freedom. May all that I continue to do be a reflection of you…. I give myself away, TAKE OVER HOLY SPIRIT.”
– In Jesus Name, Amen