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I’m Getting Old!

I am getting OLD and I am FREAKING EXCITED ABOUT IT!

Ok, I totally understand that turning twenty-eight, is not old; However, I am experiencing the personal growth that comes when a woman matures from her twenties and into her thirties and it’s AWESOME!  I am more patient with others (even myself), understanding, caring, passionate, responsible, loving, wise and truly….. way more beautiful!  My soul has been renewed and my mind is being transformed. This season in my life is incredible!

It has been a while since my last blog, I know.  I have been busy living and experiencing a FULL life of LOVE- as God intends, happiness, success, personal growth and most importantly spiritual growth!  It just wasn’t the right time to share with you.

WELL, THE TIME HAS COME and I am so excited to share this new season God started in my life, almost two months ago!  My husband and I were driving on a trip, when he asked me to tell him what God had been teaching and showing me.  The only words that came out of my mouth were….  “Honey, God is calling me for an Upgrade.”   I knew that it was time to make a strong stand against old patterns, cycles, thought processes, speech and behaviors that I believe was keeping me from completely stepping into TOTAL freedom, in Christ!  It was time to “Upgrade” to a “New Woman,” a “New Version,” of Jenn!

I wanted to write a new blog immediately, but I chose not to.  I decided that it was best to focus on allowing the “Upgrade” process to begin to take place, first!  I wasn’t sure when the time would be that I should share again,  until I was sitting in Church, this past Easter Sunday!  The service was at the end and they began to show a video, describing the new upcoming series.  I couldn’t believe what I was hearing and then saw on the screen!  An entire series titled “Upgrade!”  I about fell over in my chair, as I looked to my husband, in total and complete awe!  What I had been feeling and personally experiencing was RIGHT ON and CONFIRMED!  I mean come on the same word even that God placed in my heart, two months ago….”UPGRADE!”

I still am not sure what this all fully means and I certainly don’t have it all figured out; However,  I want to tell you that I CAN feel a huge difference in my heart!   I have, with all my heart and soul, started focusing on “Upgrading” and becoming more like Jesus, in all areas.  This new season has been very revealing of pretty much all my weaknesses,  but I am overcoming them!  I am really enjoying the new and “Upgraded” version of ME!

Looks like I will have lots to share with you, over the next few months!

If you want to follow this new series with me, then you can watch LIVE online at www.oasischurch.tv

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Just Because I am Polite; Does Not Make Me Kind.

I must start off by saying…this weeks study for me was so simple that it seemed complex and difficult!  Why is that?  Is it because I see God and His principles to be more complicated and “deep” than they really are?  Is it because our society is all about telling people “how you feel” , voice your “opinions”, stand up for your “freedom of speech” no matter how brutal, unpleasant, judgmental, wrong and unkind our statements may be?

I have been thinking (hard) about what it means to be kind, (Which is love),  and the more I thought about it the more I got confused!  All that came to my mind was…”If you can’t say something nice, then don’t say it!”  God, there HAS to be more to it than this!

I have always considered myself to be a kind person!  When I meet someone I always say, “Hi,  My name is Jennifer, it’s so nice to meet you!”  “I like your shirt, your hair is so pretty, etc.”  I always smile, if they need help I help them, if they seem sad I encourage them…of course I am kind!   Then I realized that is not necessarily kindness, that is politeness and there is a difference. I have been searching my heart this week and really asking God for insight on kindness- as He intends and what “being kind”- actually means.  Just because I am polite,  does not make me kind.  Kindness is a characteristic of LOVE that comes out of a pure heart and I don’t always keep my heart “in check.”   This is an area that God began to really deal with me,  on a very personal level.

Lesson #1:  The tongue has the power of life and death!  (Proverbs 18:21).  Life and DEATH!  DEATH?  Yes, DEATH (meaning goodbye, you’re done,  it’s over, flatlined, YOU’RE DEAD)!  What I  say matters and the SPIRIT behind what I say matters and has the power to kill and destroy!  I realized that when my sentences end with  “I’m Joking”,  “C’mon I was kidding” or “Bless their heart,”  then the statement before the candy coated ending,  did not have the spirit of true LOVE-as God intends, (which is kind).  I usually only make these “unkind” statements/jokes around my husband, family and friends, so is that really so bad?  YES!  Who I am around people that I am most comfortable with,  is who I really am!  Do I truly want my words to kill and destroy the ones that I care about the most?  OF COURSE NOT!  Could that scripture also be telling me that when I speak words of  negativity, death and destruction that my spirit will also weaken and die?  Yes, I believe so!  I must choose to STOP, SLOW DOWN and THINK before I SPEAK!  I also realized that I needed to be praying a little different in the morning and focus more on the issues of MY heart.  If my heart is inline with the heart of Jesus, then I would NOT make such remarks, even if they are candy coated as a “joke.”  True LOVE- as God intends, (which is kind), speaks LIFE, UPLIFTS, ENCOURAGES and CHOOSES to speak to the BEST in people, not their shortcomings, failures and weaknesses. “Acts of kindness are beautiful but we must not forget that words of kindness are powerful!”

New Morning Prayer #1

“God teach me to think before I speak.  When my thoughts are unkind teach me to keep my mouth shut!  Then show me the condition of my heart and reveal the true root of my sin,  forgive me and teach me true LOVE- as You intend.

Lesson #2: (Luke 30-37) “The story of The Good Samaritan”:  Ok God,  YES!  Of course I would have stopped and helped the man, that was laying in the street and in  “need”.  I have compassion for people in need, I always have…..so I am kind, YAY!!!!!   Then God said, NO.  Jennifer, do you realize that it is easier for you to show kindness to strangers than the ones closest to you?  You do not always have true LOVE- as I intend, (which is kind), in your heart.  WHOAH!!!!!!!!  Ok God!  Wow,   You are SO RIGHT!  It is much easier to show kindness to and around strangers!  Why, God? (You know it’s amazing that when you talk to God and ask him to reveal things to you…He does).  He showed me that it is easier for me to show strangers, “in need”,  kindness because I have pity but pity only leads to pride.  I must begin to see others the way God sees them!  The Holy Spirit is teaching me that true LOVE- as He intends, (which is  kind),  is without judgement and certainly without pity: but NEVER without mercy!  The same mercy that My Savior has shown me! 

Romans 3:23   For everyone has sinned; we all fall short of God’s glorious standard.   Mathew 7: 1-3  “Do not judge others, and you will not be judged. For you will be treated as you treat others.  The standard you use in judging is the standard by which you will be judged.

New Morning Prayer #2

God teach me to see everyone like You see them, never with judgement.  Instill in my heart true LOVE- as You intend, that is kind and shows Mercy to others, like You have shown me.

This study has shown me that God is actually very clear, direct, simple and much easier to understand.  We make it seem SO difficult and complex, but it’s not….it’s simply the message of LOVE.  We can obtain true LOVE- as God intends if  we just allow His spirit to flow freely through us!   Yes, I said it…ALLOW….it is up to US, everyday and is a CHOICE to open our hearts and ask God to guide our every thoughts (first) and  (then) words and actions.

Ok, I’m Done! This revelation was brutal; However, it has been very inspiring and exactly what I needed, in order to grow as a follower of Christ, as I am asking God to place in my heart the understanding of true LOVE- as He intends.

 

Let’s CHOOSE to live each day encouraging one another, rooting for each other, wishing each other success and be happy for one another!  Let’s CHOOSE forgiveness, instead of judgement. Let’s CHOOSE to speak LIFE and NOT death. Let’s CHOOSE to see the BEST in people and as God sees them!  Let’s CHOOSE KINDNESS, (which is LOVE).

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What is LOVE and what does it really mean?

I LOVE your shirt, I LOVE that song, I LOVE your hair, OMG I LOVE this! We have become so used to literally throwing the word LOVE around that it has become a trend.

Do we really understand what it means to LOVE someone or something?  Can you even LOVE a thing? Or is LOVE a very specific, divine emotion from GOD, only to be understood and practiced in our relationship with Him (our creator) and with each other?

This past year I have only begun to crack the surface on what it means to LOVE.  If you spoke to me in February of last year you would have heard me throwing the word LOVE around, in every conversation.  I instantly “fell in love” with my hubby,  he is my soulmate and I am “in love”, Oh I “love” him so much!  Well,  I have realized that my emotions and desire to be around him, get to know him, laugh with him, be with him every minute of every day and spend the rest of my life with him was so strong that I joined the trend and instantly called it “LOVE”.   What I was feeling was just the first stage of LIKE……ALOT! I have realized that LOVE, the way GOD intended, is a process and is NOT to be taken lightly!

What made me realize that I had no idea what LOVE was?  Well, I am going to tell you …Marriage Counseling!

I must admit that I did not expect our pre-marital counseling to slap me in the face!  I quickly realized that I had no idea what LOVE was or meant and THAT brutal reality actually scared me!  I realized, more than ever, that I was capable at any moment of hurting, offending and destroying my relationship with GOD, my husband, family, friends and anyone I came in contact with.   I knew that I needed to start studying and getting a grip on what it means to LOVE, the way God intends.

As I began to ask God for a divine revelation on LOVE I was reminded of Mark 12:30-31   “Love the Lord God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.  The second is this: ‘love your neighbor as yourself.’  There is no commandment greater than these.”  

THERE IS NO COMMANDMENT GREATER THAN THESE?  OK, this commandment is obviously extremely important, I thought to myself.   As I began to ponder on this popular scripture the Holy Spirit began to do a work in me, that I had never felt before and I just started to cry.  I have always loved God (so I thought), but I quickly realized that my thoughts and actions definitely were NOT showing Him or anyone that I loved God.  It was at THAT MOMENT when my heart fell into true repentance and I rededicated my life to Jesus, My Savior .  I desired, wanted and needed LOVE in my life, more than I have ever wanted it before!

How can I LOVE myself or anyone until I learn what it truly means to LOVE God?  How can I be a good wife, mother and friend until I learn to LOVE God with all my heart and with all my soul and with all my mind and with all my strength?

This was my first revelation on LOVE, It’s not about ME!   It’s about loving God, loving others and LOVE is an act of service.   I know this sounds basic and simple but it is HARD!  As I study more of Gods word  and draw closer to Him,  He is revealing things in my life that I must remove, in order to LOVE and please Him.  It is a daily struggle with my flesh because I am selfish! But through God’s example of His perfect LOVE for me,  I am understanding what it all means!

I am excited to share my journey, as I study and make the conscience effort to apply in my life the greatest commandment of all………LOVE-as God Intends.

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